whoah,! its alredy 2:30(morning guys,.haha) but im still awake,! yes,.AWAKE,! and i dont feel anything,.uknow,! bsta,.im not sleepy at all! haha,.^_^
well,.i think this is the effect of being bothered,!well.. it's hard to explain,!
but,.yes,! im so.. so bothered right now,! just because of pbb,.haha,! im addicted to it,! haha,.it's fun at all,! ryt? haha,! i know that alot of u agreed,! (xmpre,.pbb ngah eh,! haha.. the best)
aiun.. just finished watching uplate(cmon'.. pbb.. AGAIN) and i feel sad,! because of "mikee".. wawa na xa eh,! im starting to hate kim.. i dunno why,! maybe,.because she's starting to hurt mikee's feelings,! and i hate everyone who hate's mikee,.dont care 'bout them at all,! for me.. what important is,.i love him(ngak,! haha) and ill support him,! im starting to have this WEIRD thing again.. u know,.the feeling,! haha.. the weird feeling.. oh,.not just weird but VERY WEIRD!
im crushing on someone.. oh,! he's not just someone.. he's the boy on tv,! shocks,! but im not hoping.. i know,.for a FACT,.that all of this are just.. just
DREAM! u know,.those things i wished for.. but never happens,! and yeah.. it's very impossible,! haha.. but i need to accept it,! it's reality,!
but.. i really want this feelings to,.u know.. like "vanish".. "gone"..
disappear! like that,. ;)
but i know,.in myself.. that it's not my problem at all,! i already tried to "let go" this feelings(yes..the feelings that i have right now,! the stupid ones.. that bothers me,!) but nothing happens.. it just stay,!
i think the only way to solve this is.. to stop watching pbb,! no way,.BOO! i cant.. honestly,.pbb has been a part of my life too,! you know..like i always want to be updated,! i dont want to miss a single part of it,! i watch everyday.. starting from studio 23's pinoy big brother at 11:30.. till abs-cbn's pbb uplate,! see? how can i stop watching it,! i can't help it,! staying up late and waking up early? it's like.. WOW! that's not the real me,! haha.. ^_^
but the nice thing about it,.is ive changed,! pbb changed me.. it almost touched my life,! u know..there are certain things i dont do before,.and now.. im doing it,! but.. in the other side.. there are some things i do before.. but when pbb comes,.oh no,! i will nmnot do iit anymore.. haha,! i think.. that's what we call.. "FAIR" haha,! im just being fair at all! well.. sometimes..being fair is good,! but in my way.. being fair could be bad too.. haha,! sometimes.. we just have to! hehe.. that's life! it's part of it,!
and you know what is the worst thing about pbb? haha.. well! it's not their fault.. it's my fault,! ive been addicted to their show eh,! haha.. the worst about pbb is.. you'll be addicted to it,! and once.. once your addicted to it.. you have to stay awake.. for almost half an hour,! haha.. just to watch their show.. and because of that.. i always sleep late,! (ndi n kxe aku mrunong matulog ng maaga ih.. sanay aku ng umaga,! sbi ngah nila.. aswang ata aku,! haha) and sleeping late,.causes me.. alot.. yes! ALOT.. ALOT.. ALOt of pimples,! haha.. and i hate it,! well.. infact.. my mom hates it more,! she hate's it more than i do.. haha,! i dunno.. can't understand her,! she's suffering for me.. but me,.i dont care at all(oh yes,.i care.. but still,.i always sleep late) haha,! bad girl to noh,!
haha! haha! haha! she's right here.. near me,! but she's already sleeping! and she wants me to sleep too.. but as i have told you! im not sleepy at all,! am not on the mood to sleep,! haha..^_^
and you know,.guys! sometimes.. sleeping late is good too,! especially now! think about it.. uhm.. think about going back to school! (hate it,.haha) school days are coming.. it's near! so.. make the most of it,! because.. when school days comes.. everyone of us should sleep early! school bus or school service are always in a hurry! (like mine.. haha! they pick me up at 4:30 in the morning) hehe.. wawa aku! so.. what are we waiting for? just enjoy,! dont waste time.. just feel free.. because when school days are in,.our parents are the one who's right again! haha.. we need to follow everything they've said.. because.. as they've said.. (a thousand times.. oh no! zillion times n pla) "its for our future" haha..future kuno! haha.. but i believe them! just wanna make fun about it.. hehe,!
well.. i think.. im already creating noise here,! hehe.. :)
my mom act like she want's me to leave the room,! but remember.. she's sleeping! haha.. weird ryt? eniweiz.. i think that my virtues( virtues dw? anu b dapat? haha) are ryt! haha :)
i cause so much lights here.. hehe! and i create noise too.. by ty[ing on the keyboard,! i might let them awake.. oh no! im sure.. they'll hate it! because.. i hate it too! i hate being awaked by someone.. you know! who causes a lot of disturbance,! well.. i think tha it's time.. time to say goodbye! oh no.. not goodbye! but to end up this entry! haha.. but not to sleep! i dunno.. we'll see! goodnight everyone.. eventhough it's morning! haha!